This is abt my love affair with a girl called chumma. She was my relative .
We used to meet n hang out together with sum of our common friends
for about a year n half later , On New year’s eve she took her best buddy laxmi's help to convey her feeling towards me through her. Laxmi approached me on 1jan 07 and said abt that chumma is in love with u and she is mad me. she asked me abt my fellings towards her. i have said that she is friend i havent thought abt her like that. And i havent agreed as her cousin's were my close buddies We were living in the same apartment building. Back then there were four of us, and we got along well. We would always eat dinner together, watch movies, and sometimes go camping haging uot tegeather . We were more like a family, but I didn't know I would end up falling in love with my friends cousin sister the only girl n i wanted her to say about it to them n convince them abt our love. She had said abt it to her cousins n convinced them. then finally the day came when she finally praposed for love once again .We met the next day in oven's a place we hang out regularly in narayanguda- hyd.She said abt it to me and when it started n how ............................. .
And I also wanted to get to know her. so i took her out and we had a wonderful time. I never felt that way about anyone before. I felt that feeling. that feeling you get when you have butterflies in your stomach and its like they almost hurt. so we went out on a couple more dates before we decided to make it .After 6 n half month later I started ignoring her as nana was not good and admitted in a hospital as he was suffering from brain hemarage .
As I was very much worried that she is very serious about our relation and I was not so sure about this.
So, on one day She called and said she was coming up to meet me near pedamma temple with her friend laxmi. It was the third time she came up to see me that week. I carried her excuse of why she came all the way here and went to meet her at the temple. We were standing there near temple to meet her and talk. Finally after 1 hour she came .I walked up to her and said, "You shouldn't come see me anymore," and stuff like that.
She said, "I miss you." I told her coldly, "Go back to home”. I knew she wanted to share some time with me. Unwillingly, she walked with me. She begged and said, "Lets go in the park just for a little while please, I promise I'll go home right after this."
With her begging, my cold heart softened, but I still put up an annoyed face and walked in the silent park jubilee hills. I was just sitting on the benches looking like I wanted to leave. We spent some time up there She said she hadn't eaten lunch or dinner and asked if we could stop at some place to eat.
Right away I answered with a stoned heart, "No!". Disappointed her but we have gone all the way from jubilee hills to a dhaba in medchal, she asked me to say my feeling’s abt our relation and I said I have nothing to say abt it. I wished her to not to talk abt it anymore and I left from there to her cousin’s place n she said she will go back to home. But She was looking around for quite a while, then she came back slowly with tears on her face. She said, "Dillu n laxmi , that she can't find it, it's not there anymore."
I felt so sour inside, there was a stream of pain, flowing into my heart, the kind of pain I've never felt before. But all I could do was pretend I didn't care, and said, "Can we go now?"
she was just standing there, didn't want to leave yet, hoping there was still a chance. She said, "You made up the story of you and that problem in our life didn't you? I know I frustrate you sometimes, but I'll change, can't we start over?"
I didn't say a word, just looked down and shook my head. After that we just kept on walking towards the parking lot, didn't say a word to each other. Thinking that it was okay, I started living my normal life again, and even forgot about it. I didn't think about it again and did not go back to her, the nightmare awakened me again. First I thought the pain would go away, but it grew stronger until to the point that I couldn't take it anymore.
I lied to her that I used her n flirted with her it was a cruel thing to do, and it broke her heart, but it was the fastest way to wipe out years feelings. I didn't have much time, because I would soon start to loose my concentration on work as nana was not earing n I had too earn for our family living.
I didn't get anymore of her phone calls even until today. I know she didn't see my tears, because they were washed away. I left her without regrets.
After 2 months we meet again at her sister’s engagement where she looked at me innocently. Being together for so long, of course I knew what she meant. I understand how she must feel when she came all this way here in this kind of situation and I treat her like this. With her soft eyes staring at me, I felt guilt and wanted to let her stay with me. But reality struck again, I said to her coldly, "Let it go." On that day and left for my home.
I mean while days passed we again met each other at her sister’s marriage.i completely
Ignored her and acted as I haven’t noticed her. But still she was looking at mee and I know
She was crying inside seeing me like that. Slowly time passed and the marriage ceremony is completed and then the real party stared were we danced n enjoyed with our other friends.
Here one of my friends friend sawed chumma and felled for her.he asked me about her n me and he also asked me ru still in relation with chumma but I said may or may not be.
BUT IT WAS THE TIME AGAIN I NEED HER AGAIN IN MY LIFE AS I LOVED HER.
After a month she came to her cousin’s place who is my friend. I know that DAY 25 jan.
I went there as that day was my off. I met her, but I sawed sumanth the one who loved
Chumma the one who met her in her sister wedding my friends friend.
I was so jealous of him that I could not spare him.but I had too as he was my friend too.
I mean while my aunt called me when they were having there dinner in my friends place.
In front of them our aunt asked about sumanth and the other one who is with maddy.
I said some thing but our aunt was douting about chumma n sumanth.Then the thing happened I have becamed the don of their life over nite.The next day sumanth came with sum of his friends to hit me as he tought that I had said wrongly abt him n chumma to their aunt.He said that he is also in love with chumma.
This is the end I asked her that is she is in still in love with me but she said that she no more loves me & she let it go………….
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